Crushed Beauty

I heard this phrase on the radio earlier this week and can’t seem to get it off my mind. The speaker described how fresh herbs will release their beautiful aromas often after they are rubbed between your fingers or crushed once fully grown. Think about taking a few sprigs of lemon herb and crushing it down to small pieces so you can mix it in with your dinner. The lemony scent is released and adds so much flavor and life to whatever it is you’re making! My husband could tell you that I don’t grow fresh herbs…but I may need to start after this! Lemon herb chicken for dinner 🙂
The same is true with roasting coffee beans. The fresh, bitter, and hard green beans have to go through a roasting period in the fire before they reach the desired flavor that the roaster is trying to achieve. They lose their old husks and become beans that are ready to brew. The key is to not let the beans get off to the side because they will stay in the fire and burn completely. Who doesn’t want a fresh cup of roasted coffee…so much better than Folgers! 😉
I realized the reason I couldn’t get these pictures out of my mind is because God was trying to say all along that this is what He’s been doing with me and is doing with so many of His people in the church. Back in November, I experienced some of the worst spiritual warfare and anxiety that I have ever been through. No doubt, I can attribute some of it to all the transition we have been through during the last two years. I’m not complaining because I wouldn’t trade one minute of it for anything. Tremendous blessings came during that time but I did struggle with understanding why I could be experiencing these thoughts and feelings when it should be the happiest time of my life. Being a new mom, working full time, being in full time ministry, trying to be a wife, step-mom, daughter, and friend, gets exhausting and I haven’t always taken the best care of myself through it all. People were disappointing me every time I turned around. I became frustrated and cried out to God many times for answers trying to understand what I am doing wrong or how to overcome this season I was in. I heard a lot of silence and didn’t always get the immediate response I asked for. I’m sharing all of this and becoming vulnerable because I believe most of us have been here on some level. I hope this is encouraging because the trial does end and joy does come. When the joy comes, our perspective tends to change about the people that let us down or the trial we went through. Everyone carries loads and burdens that others can’t even fathom and most of us have multiple roles that we play each day. The truth of God’s Word that He will never leave me nor forsake me sustained me through the hardest trial I have ever had to face as a Christian along with so many other scriptures that would take an incredible amount of time to list. My mind was racing and the enemy threw lie after lie at me until I felt like I was going to break because there was no rest. I won’t say that I’ve completely came out of this season of “roasting” or “crushing” but now I see the purpose. After the fire stops and the crushing ends, the beauty begins to emerge if we hold on to our faith and remain in Him who holds our hearts and minds in His hands. Fear and doubt have to go when we cast these anxieties on Him who cares for us. Paul prayed for the thorn in his flesh to be taken away and He didn’t get the answer he wanted but he was reminded that God’s grace would be sufficient and that His power would be made perfect in our weakness. It all sounds good and almost too easy to say but it’s true. We serve a mighty God who loves us when we feel beautiful and unstoppable but also when we feel weary and broken. Beauty comes after the crushing. Hold on. Lemon-Herb-Chicken-Marinade


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